OK, so I thought about 1st apologizing for offending anyone with what I have to say next, but then I thought, this is how I feel right now and I'm not apologizing for it. It's actually how I have felt for a long time, but something happened today that has made me want to write about it. OK, so here goes....
A friend of mine found out a few weeks ago that she is expecting a baby. They have been trying for well over a year and it has FINALLY happened. Well, she started spotting a few days ago and went to the doctor. They did an ultrasound and are pretty sure that she is having a miscarriage. Her Hcg levels are not where they should be and it is essentially a matter of time before she loses the baby.
Here is where my ranting starts....I just can't understand why this is happening to them. There is no reason on earth that this makes sense! Why do bad things happen to people who don't deserve it? I'm using my friends as an example because this all happened today, but I've been dealing with this issue for years now.
You say there is a God and that he is a wonderful loving God. So, if that's true, why do these things happen? I just can't wrap my mind around it. I don't understand why he lets these things happen. I mean, put my friend's situation aside......why are children molested? Why are women raped? Did they deserve it? Is that why this happened to them? I don't think this can ever be explained to me....not that I would ever understand an explanation. You say that God has a hand in everything.....from what I've seen, he doesn't sound like a very loving God to me if he lets these things happen to good people, children, women.
I don't know......I've been struggling with this whole religion thing and God for a very long time now and everytime I feel myself close to being able to go to church and just Believe, something like this happens and it sets me right back to square one. I'm not the kind of person that can just Believe. I need to know how things work and why. I need answers. To just Believe.....just doesn't work for me.
OK....so that's the end of my rant for now. If you don't hear from me for awhile, it means there is a God and he's struck me down for defying him. :-)
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2 comments:
Sorry Kim :(
I totally hear you, Kim.
I, too, would like to believe in a loving God... but it's really hard sometimes.
I'm agnostic. I do believe in a conscious higher power, but I don't think It has a direct hand in our lives. I also like to believe in reincarnation, and that death is just a transition. I'm not saying I DO believe that 100%, but I'd like to think that's what happens.
As for what's happening to your friends, that just sucks. Plain and simple. I wish I had the answers. The one thing I think though is that they are lucky to have each other. And, hopefully, their love will grow stronger with everything difficult situation they go through together.
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